in the past weeks, i have "quit" blogging no less than 27 times. i have gone back and forth between stopping all together and ramping things up more. i have seen "signs" in favor of quitting and in favor of pressing on. the thing is, it never felt right to say "i'm done."
i think perhaps i just needed to step back and take a deep breath. perhaps i am having a midlife (or hopefully 1/3 life) crisis of sorts. i have felt like i am wandering about with no real direction. so i took a vacation. not in the typical sense, but basically, i took a vacation from the computer.
i have spent time outside in the sunshine with my hands in the dirt. i have spent time curled up on the couch in my snuggly robe with hot tea. i have been completely unproductive, caught up on my dvr while drinking too much wine. i have spent extra time at night talking and snuggling with E. i have hung pictures that have been leaning against a wall for weeks. i have neglected my google reader, had coffee with friends, made dinner without taking photos of the food, spent time outside with my dogs, and exercised like crazy.
it felt good. i feel great but i also feel like i want to take a picture of the dinner i made and share it. i don't really know who i am sharing it with. i know i have a small, very loyal following but other than my close friends and family, i don't know who my readers are. i used to follow the stats and watch every little peak and dip in visitors. i used to wonder why i rarely get comments and try to figure out which recipes get the most hits and views.
here's the thing - i love cooking and baking. i am loving fixing up our old house. i love taking photographs and something in me wants to share those things. so that's just what i'll do.
i will continue trying new recipes, creating new meals, eating at baltimore's best restaurants, taking photos, and i will continue to blog when i have something to blog about. i hope you all are okay with that.
it's good to be back.